|She lies and says she's in love with him
||[Nov. 10th, 2005|09:33 pm]
|||||Can't find a Better Man- Pearl Jam||]|
I've been feeling loserish lately. I like my job (minus Karen) and I'm happy with the home situation but compared to others I feel so unaccomplished. I feel like I don't have a "real" job and I'm just dicking around living at my parents house. I want to have my own place, be making a real salary, do something important with myself...have a better title then just receptionist.
If I could pick right now I'd be off in Sioux Falls living with Kris being a veterinary technician. And then reality sets in I have to go to school for that, I have to have money to go to school, I have to have a job to have money, I need money to move, I need a job to have money, I need more money, I need more money, I need more money...I need a better job to have more money, I need to go to school to have a better job, I need money to go to school. I just feel so directionless and I want to know what's going to happen I want to have plans and know that I'm moving towards something and not standing still....but that's all I am just stuck in every part of myself.
In a totally different subject every time I turn on the radio it's "Can't find a better man" by Pearl Jam and I just think does everything have to be so ironic all the time. "That's why she'll be back again, can't find a better man."